one of the most enjoyable things someone like me can do is to develop his imagination. a strong imagination is capable of so many things, not the least of which being the picturing of the perfect girl.

there's nothing quite like taking your mood at the moment and projecting it onto a girl you already know and find attractive. right now she has strong hands (because my neck and shoulders hurt like crazy - don't get me wrong; i'd return the favor), is mellow (because i'm just a little tired), and enjoys sitting here listening to queen with me (because i'm a dork). it's comforting to say to yourself, "yeah, i can see her liking that," even while thinking that there's no chance you'll ever be in a relationship with her.

i wouldn't know because i've never experienced the other side of this, but i think the old adage of desire being more perfect than possession probably holds true most of the time.

i'm reasonably content right now, but the desire always persists, somewhere in the background, and some day maybe it will be fulfilled. we'll see - i'm not going to sit idly by for much longer.

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