so, as i've been relating to someone for the past hour, i can admit to the fact that i'm running, or hiding, or something, from whom i am. i'm a trusting person who's turned his back on trust, a loving person who's losing faith in love, an emotional person constantly attempting (to coin a term) emoticide. it's more comfortable this way. rather commonplace and stereotypical, to have been left enough times to make me not want to become close to anyone in the first place. fairly mundane case study, i know. i live in a chapter from a mid-level psychology text.

it's easier this way, though. until i find someone worthy of trust, i don't think i'm going to be likely to trust anyone. i don't want to. it seems insensitive to tell people that i don't trust them enough to want to become close to them...guess i just won't tell them.

i don't need someone to tell me what's wrong with me; i need someone to prove that it's wrong.

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