crazy. it's all just crazy. life comes, goes, flies by. mindsets change like seasons, the current runs on. i float, dealing with whatever comes my way in the best way i can find at the moment. what can i say about anything anymore? i can say that it's unexpected, that life will grab and pull and sometimes there's little to do but laugh with delight, but sometimes you have to fight to get the next breath. trust me, it's not what the rest of us signed up for either.

experience, hopes, dreams, a slideshow. we like this but can't stand that; we have to deal with it all. viewpoints, faith, emotional profile all a blur. couldn't tell you what i really think about most things for the life of me; it's where clever self-deception meets reality, and i don't care. doesn't make sense? doesn't matter - answers come when they need to. outside of that, it's all a rollercoaster, where the ups prepare you for the downs leave you breathless so you close your eyes and just relax. can't be explained, but it sure is fun to try. philosophy as pooled ignorance? perhaps, but at least it'll keep us alert.

i know less than i did when half of my soul wasn't operating, but i'm comfortable with that. irony amuses me, and i doubt i'll ever stop being able to point out the irony in my life. i can't grow old until i stop laughing - the secret to eternal youth. i may have questions now more than ever, but the search is nearly always its own reward.

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