I feel so weighed down right now. The past couple days i've really been struggling with...something.

The world runs on pain. Today i got a real sense of that. It's sick how so many in society profit from it - they actually make monetary gains based on how much someone else hates himself and just can't let go of it. I've really felt the dark part of life today and how steeped in it so many people are. They've killed their sense of faith in perfection, so they'd rather run as far from it as they can get. When one rejects a belief in God, he rejects the notion that something or Someone out there is in fact all good.

How can i help if i can't keep my own head held high?

Our lives seem so insignificant - a mere vapor. But think what a vapor can do. Smelling salts can revive a person from unconsciousness; a small amount of mustard gas can kill more than one person. I guess it's our choice how we want our lives to smell.

Right now, i'm worn out, a bit lonely, and really struggling against...God knows what. But...
"I know what i have to do now. I have to keep breathing...because tomorrow, the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide will bring?"

(-Tom Hanks, "Cast Away")

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