Fall break has arrived, and i'm still at school, due to circumstances completely within my control. Those "circumstances" can basically be reduced to one thing: i don't want to go home. It'd be much nicer to relax here where it's pretty by myself than to go to a hot, flat state and live in a small, non-air conditioned house with three other people. I'm looking forward to a very peaceful, enjoyable, and somewhat productive weekend.

Outside of that, i'm still searching for answers...or at least better questions. Always searching...i think it might be the best way to go. It's hard, but it spurs growth.

In the midst of all the wondering and uncertainty, i know One Who is constant. Sometimes it seems just the opposite, but my own movement clouds my view of Him. Sometimes i lose perspective. I've been challenged recently to practice two things: keeping God in my thoughts every second of the day and respecting/loving everyone. One would be hard-pressed to find two harder things for me to do. The first one's getting easier, but it's still very difficult to keep the focus, "Would God approve of this?" all the time. The second one's nearly impossible for me. I look around myself and see idiocy everywhere my head turns. These days, a great majority of people have no common sense, and they seem proud of the fact and perfectly happy with their stupidity - it drives me absolutely nuts. Yet every one of them is a creation of God, and should be given a chance...or two...or three. Easier said than done for me. I think i might be getting better, but i've still got a long way to go.

Ok, enough inane rambling for one night. I doubt most of this has made any sense, or if it did, has had any impact. Oh well; i can't win all the time. Time for bed.

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